Unorganised !!

i felt so unorganised lately..
everything seem so messy..life, work,studies ............
Its just like in a short period of time, many things happen...
did i not handle it well enough, or i m not mature enough to handle myself when it involves my emotions ? m i too emotional ? or too soft ? i do need some space to sort out things n figure out wat i wan to do and wat i could do ........

i alwiz have thought i could handle watever that happens to me becoz i belive everything happens for a reason and definitely i gain more than i lose in every thing that has happen...but lately things dun seem to be smooth sailing..everything seem so stuck up now !!

i m feeling so guilty now...ppl told me i din ask for it to happen, BUT .....now this whole guilty feeling is taking over me...wat can i do to reduce this guilty thingy...

i m not blaming anyone for watever that has happen...bcoz i m goin to go thru it !!
i definitely will be able to come over this !! this is just another very small matter...
as long as i know wat i m doing...everything will be fine !!

n of course not to forget to those who are alwiz so willing to lend their ears to me and alwiz advicing me... ( i hope u guys know who u r...) thank u so much for all your patience and tolerance towards me.

i mus get back on track n focus to do wat i wan to do..listen to my heart !
i do know that i m getting lazy with my gym sessions nowadays, instead of sweating at the gym, my butt is sitting confortably at restaurants for heavy dinners...indulging in the comfortness of food...

applesiew..after writing this,put behind everything tat makes u moody and unhappy !! look infront, lots of things are waiting for u to explore and see..the path is stil a long way to go, this is part n parcel of life..this is where i m learning to grow...CHEER UP APPLE SIEW !!!